the journey of a widow
8 months 💔I had an appointment with my grief/trauma counselor the other day. I’m having difficulties. I’m grieving deeply, and in seclusion, which isn’t healthy. She said Dwight wouldn’t want this for me. That made an impact. I immediately choked up. She’s right. He wouldn’t. He hurt to see me hurt and there were times he cried with me. If he could see me now, his heart would break. He only wanted me to be happy. I’m going to try and work on that.
One of the often-uttered phrases during all of this is that I am adjusting to my new normal. There is nothing normal about this. The old normal was perfectly fine. I want it back. Now. Sure, death is an accepted part of life and those left behind need to deal with it. It is what it is. We attend a funeral, express our condolences, cry a bit, have wistful & fond memories, but for the most part, we go on after a small interruption of day-to-day life. Maybe we take a couple of days off, but eventually we go back…
Generally, the world comes in packages of two without attracting much attention. Unless it's a bicycle built for two or a two dollar bill, there's not too much hoopla made over double quantities. However... The world truly seems to be geared towards couples. I never noticed it before, but lately there have been numerous examples that have brought this to my attention. A few weeks ago, I had my eyes checked and got new glasses. Of course, the office was having a" buy one, get one 50% off sale" on frames. We used to go together so we could take…